My article of the day will be very long today and due nothing does not go any more, I am completely depressed...

The life, per moment does not make us a gift, it is necessary to face the bad passages with dignity and courage, but there I cannot about it any more, I lived a divorce which even if I went back from there will not undoubtedly erase never, I had not badly problem family side and on this side also I had a reason even if I would never cure really, money worries also to a époque(dû with my divorce), that on the other hand it is regulated even if one cannot say that I am rolling in money, one rowed much to have a pretty house that it was finally found certainly but nothing is done for a little that it is said to me that construction is delayed that that would not astonish me, one rows, one rows, one takes blows in the mug and I pass to you from there, I does not say all here to you, it is always necessary to be raised and advance...

But there, it is the water drop... we learned with darling this morning that our desire of child cannot be exhaucer, it is that we have each one on our side a concern  and that both joined together that all the more reduces our chances to have a baby naturally, it remains however still quelquechose to make in a way médicalement assisted but  even if if fortunately, medicine progressed and that it can enable us to have some, nothing is ensured, and that done too much evil of knowing that he will not come in a natural way, like everyone what...

... Also, I am feeling gloomy today and envies to cry, that bursts me the heart of always having to fight, always have to fight this bad luck or this "black", I do not know how to still name it, always to fight still and and why that does not come like everyone, why...

...Then yes, I am in life, yes I am in good health, yes I have a good job, yes I yes have a darling who likes me , I do not live in the street, but there is too the things are clear, this baby so much desired will not come all alone and the life is sometimes cruel, I have a ball in the throat and a node with the stomach, and that does not go I want to howl and of chialer but what good is it, that will not solve our problem...

... Alors yes we will do all that there is to do so that this little baby points one day the end of his nose, but while waiting for the pain is immense and incurable, but while waiting for the pain is well there and she devours me more and more, nothing do not make there, I have badly with deepest of my flesh and nothing relieves me, to take enough blows in the mug in this whore of life, this time I am not able to be raised, enough of all these tests, enough of always having to be strong...

...Only one thing in my head : we will not naturally have the chance to have a baby and I burst some...