Series Of 3 and I swore I never would!
What to do when your Dad is out fishing?

Get into trouble with your hubby.

Susan lived next door to my mom & Dad for a year or two with her son Nick. He was a tiny guy. About three  years old at the time. He and I would play in his room, throw stuffed animals around and usually end up in a arguement. I was 3 1/2 years older than he was. What does one expect? We were being kids.
Anyway, off we went into his living room .. THREW ALL the toys into that very nice ,VERY VERY CLEAN LIVINGROOM.. and there they were. A room full of stuffed animals.

Susan had  husband # 3.. A pervert from HELL! Always on the internet visiting sex dating.
Jim Hoffman. He had 3 kids from another marriage. They would show up and play every now and than with Nick. I did not know these kids too well.
Anyway, Jim Hoffman said "pick up the toys, NOW!"
I said in my 6 year old self " No, don't have to!"
He got really pissed " I said pick the GODDAMN TOYS UP NOW!"

I said "NO! "
And I proceeded to RUN OUT THAT DAMN door .

Jim caught me in the driveway though. He took me by one arm and threw me onto the pavement. He bashed me really hard into that driveway, and proceeded to hit me with a closed fist. My head hit the driveway, his fist hit my arms, back , chest.
Susan came out of the house and yelled " let go of her you *Son OF A BITCH!* "
Susan was holding a gun. He went in side to beat on her. She was next. I heard the gun go off.
Mom and Claudia dragged me into the house.

Susan was in her house. She did in fact shoot that gun, straight at Jim. MISSING NICKS HEAD by a quarter of an inch! Missing Jim too by just a smidgen.
The police took him away.

Mom and Claudia told me NOT to tell Papa Gil. It would make him really angry at Auntie Susan. I do not want him angry at Auntie. He would hurt her husband. I do not want him to hurt her husband nor Auntie.
I did not tell Dad until many years later.
He told me he knew that Mom was always keeping shit from him. That was what made him angry at her.
Most of all , that was something he should of known about. They were right about one thing. He would of killed Jim Hoffman.

For many years after that I was in Counseling at school with Mrs Largent , from grade 3rd through 6th. I would re-enact it . I would pretend to kill him , over and over again. Him and Don Lyday.
Mom was always afraid of what I was going to say in that counseling session.
Afraid?
I was having nightly nightmares. I was afraid to be in my room at night. I was hearing things all the time.
Yet, she was afraid that someone might find out?
If Dad ever really would of listened, he would of helped me.. this I know. I know.

I was crying often. Often I was going into the hospital with reasons not identifiable. I was sick. Things were not good. Not good at all.
My life at home was sad, mostly my cat and dolls made me smile. I smiled on the outside. I smiled. I was a brat to many. I was?
I was a human.